Update and having a really hard time...

My family and I have been under a lot of stress lately. We have still not moved. I am trying to pay off bills, but they keep piling up! Today the van sounded funny. Just like it did before the transmission went out. I am really worried. I am also worried because I haven't had my period for about 2 weeks now. Maybe it is the stress? Let's hope so. I have been praying to God that we will be ok. I miss having a husband who I can be happy with and share my thoughts with. But we are both heading in the wrong direction and don't know where to turn. I wish we can support each other on this, but it is sooooo hard right now. I hope God has a plan for us, cause of not we are in deep crap.